Nanny Barbara

I haven't blogged for a while because over a month ago tragedy struck. My mother, Zack's Nanny Barbara, died suddenly from a heart attack on the 5th June.

Such monumental news hit me side on the face and took my legs from under me. 

Zack was lucky to have known his nanny Barbara, she worshipped that little boy. She would come in to the house pick him up and just cuddle him, smothering him with kisses. I used to joke with her that if she looked after Zack constantly then he would get nothing done because all she would do was cuddle him.

As you can imagine the grief has been both shocking and devastating. I miss my mum. I miss phoning her to tell her about the small little achievements Zack has made or about the ridiculous appointment I've just been too.

In my heart I know she will always be with us and I always feel her nearby. I wish she was still with us but I take comfort knowing that Zack will have an Angel watching him. I'm sorry I cannot write any more, I just don't have the words.

In memory of my Mother, Nanny Barbara. We love you. We miss you.