Showing posts with label PEG. Show all posts
Showing posts with label PEG. Show all posts

Saturday, 25 April 2015

Epic Fail

December. December. That's when I last spoke.

Sorry. I'm back, we're back. To continue our adventures, our story.

I won't bore you with the recap of the past four months, you'll catch up. Just know that we are all well and in a good place.

So on with the story.


I went in for some PEG button changing training the other day with the school nurse. Zack's Mic-Key button has been in place now for five years and every three months it needs to be replaced with a new one.




This job was always done by a nurse. I avoided it at all costs, too squeamish (wimpy I know) but also the fact that he once pulled it out by himself and then it refused to go back in firmly boxed off any chance I had of going near it. 

However, given I am often on my own with him and he has a taste for getting hold of his button and/or feeding tube I thought it was about time I come face to face with my nemesis.

So here I was at 3.15pm in school looking at a pretend baby doll that has had a really rough start in life. I mean that baby has a tracheostomy, a cannula, a peg and some other hole in the poor things stomach. Also, small child, the curious four year old enquires about each and every added extra that appears on the babies body. I swear by the time she's 10 she will have the knowledge of a first year medic student.

Pretend doll didn't play along, the peg wouldn't go back in, things did not bode well.

We move over to real child who was very happily chilling on the floor listeining to music having been very unimpressed with the school visitor, subject matter being gardening.

I get the peg out okay, by this point Zack is highly amused at my attempt to not butcher his stomach and does not co-operate by lying in a relaxed manner as I shakily went in for the placement of the PEG. Would it go in? My arse it would, nope it kept wobbling and bending all over the shop. Which only increased Zack's capacity for laughter and my inability to get over my fear of pushing on.

In the end I quit and the nurse popped it in.

Epic fail. I flunked my first attempt. I didn't even flunk my drivers test first time and all this is is putting a small plastic tube into a hole. Oh, did I mention it's only a hole that goes directly into my child's stomach. No pressure then.



Agreement was that I have another go in three months time.


I came home with both children and told Dan about my flunking of the button change. By the way, he has successfully completed his training no problem. 

Yeah I thought you might find it difficult was his first response. You kind of have to wiggle it about. You'll get it though. 

Yep, I'll get it. But for now Nurse Gould, if that button comes out, you're up.

Friday, 30 October 2009

So it is with trepidation I mention the pen torch....

The Pants had a very busy week. Not that he would have noticed as he just gets to see a few new faces and interesting rooms in clincs. As I write this I am trying to think back to Monday and remember who we met with, oh that's right Monday was a day off I think, even so it still felt like a busy day.

Tuesday was mega. It started off with a visit from the community nurse which is always nice. She called in to check out Zack's PEG. It was still oozing gunk and the over-granulation had now formed a big blob, rather like he was growing a second body just to the left of his belly button. Dan did question whether his stomach was growing out of the hole made by the PEG which lead me to wonder about his IQ level. But it was okay he was just having a Goldie Hawn moment. I reassured him it wasn't his stomach mutating just some cells growing over the hole trying to mend it, all part and parcel of a healthy immune system. The nurse ordered us some more cream which would hopefully dry it up and stop the infection. So far this has worked and Zack's PEG is looking a lot better.

I just managed a cup of tea and slice of toast when our next visitor turned up, a lovely lady from the charity SENSE.

SENSE helps children and adults who are deafblind by offering support, campaigning and making information available via publications and the web.

SENSE lady was fantastic, she asked me all about Zack and how he communicates, I told her how I know when he's annoyed and when he is content. I also mentioned how he has started to anticipate things which she said was a really good thing, now I just need to read the signs of knowing when he wants me to continue to do something. For example when we play a game, he isn't making sounds to tell me he wants me to do more, they can often be quite subtle so I have to watch for them. This lead to a lot of time between Zack and his new friend repeating phrases and tapping his chest which he seemed to like. Zack tends to make little clucky sounds when he is happy and little whiny murmurs when he is chatting. He also makes his breathing slow down when he concentrates, that's quite cute, he stares at you intently as though you are the most interesting thing in the world.

We then popped him into his Little Room so she could watch to see how he moved and responded to play on his own. He didn't let me down. He decided he was going to be extra smart and show her how he can work out where his rattle is on the side of the box by hitting some bells and then swinging his arm around to the side. He then opened his hand and hooked his finger through the rattle so he could grab it. I was impressed, our visitor said he was definitely planning this move and using orientation to work out where it was which is all very good. She said she would like to visit again, I said great. Maybe by then Zack will have mastered the art of juggling!

After this visit it was time for a quick feed for Zack and a sandwich for me then off to the hospital for an appointment with the vision lady. I have no idea of her correct title but sessions usually include her shining a pen torch in Zack's eye for pupil response and then waving a lollipop shaped board in front of him with black and white zigzags on them. We hadn't seen her in a while and what usually happens is Zack falls asleep within five minutes of meeting her. He was so on form. As soon as we went in the room he went to sleep. When he did actually decide to play along he got annoyed with the light shining in his eyes, which the vision woman was very pleased about as this reaction meant that light was getting through. She also thought his pupil reaction was getting better, Zack made a good response when the lights were turned off and the blind pulled down. At one point he caught sight of the lollipop board and followed it only a little but enough to warrant some excitement. The lady did remark that he was a bit of a cheeky monkey and had certainly put her in her place by only doing things on his terms, which is what I have been telling everyone for weeks. Zack will not do something unless he wants to do it, a bit like his mum. We left the appointment with our very own eye pen torch and instructions to warm up his eyes by shining it in them and then follow this by showing him a black and white toy to encourage following movement.

When Dan came home that evening I told him about the appointments and the pen torch. Now Dan loves Zack immensely but he does sometimes have a habit of testing him, especially his eyes. So it is with trepidation I mention the pen torch....

"We've been given our own light pen." Dan turns to look at me with a smile on his face, "Have we, were is it?"
"I have the pen. It's hidden away because I know you as soon as I go out tonight you'll be on with the shining in his eyes and we are only to use it occasionally."
"No, I won't. Where is it?"
"I'm not saying, I am going to monitor the pen torch use."
"Well, how many times can I use it then?"
"Three." (I had no idea I just made that up).
"Okay. Well I won't do it tonight.......so where is it then?"
"Oh look is Zack having a poo, he might need his nappy changing."

Ha! A diversion meant I went off with friends to the Trafford Centre for five hours and Dan forgot about the pen torch. Okay, this may seem like very controlling behaviour but seriously, I know him, the temptation would have been too much, all Zack would have seen for the rest of the evening would have been orange lights. Needless to say we have since used the pen torch and Dan has not at all been over-doing it. In fact I think we got over-engrossed in using the pen torch on each others eyes to see how quickly our pupils reacted............I think we need to get out more. Pen torch is now a free agent in the house and rests openly on the table in the lounge.

More rest of the week to follow.

Sunday, 14 June 2009

I feel like I am in a very small funhouse for teeny tiny people

I realise in my last post the picture of the Bumbum chair hasn't quite worked, will try and get some new pics of it on here soon. 

I took Zack to use the sensory room in Latchford on Friday, his Auntie Karen came with us. I had booked the room for an hour all to ourselves and it cost us not a penny........I was quite impressed with that considering I was going to spend £40 on Baby Sensory Classes.

So we get to the family centre and oooh and aaah at the nice little building tucked away, then we get taken to the room and oooh and aaaah at the spinning lights. The lady explains how to use the controls for the room.  Meanwhile Zack is checking out the spinning lights and I'm starting to feel nauseous at their endless repetition around the room, I feel like I am in a very small funhouse for teeny tiny people.  The nice family centre lady leaves us to it and we get excited about the nice big comfy leather beanbags and then Auntie Karen gets extra excited about the special little seats for babies. When I spot what she means I too get extra excited, yes, ladies and gents, the sensory room only had the best seat in the world, the Bumbum chair, fantastic. This was followed by lots of screaming about the seat, then Zack got plonked in the seat, followed my more screaming of how cute he looked in the seat. 

By this time Zack really didn't care about the room and went to sleep for the full hour.  So Auntie Karen and I spent the hour gossiping, lying on comfy leather beanbags and relaxing to classical music all whilst messing about with fibre optic lights. It was very relaxing....I recommend that every office in the UK has a sensory room, they're fabulous.

The Pants and I shall be returning for another visit soon, this shall definitely be added onto our list of therapies.

This week coming up is going to be a busy one, we have appointments all week. 

One good thing though, I had a phone call today from a lady whose little boy has a PEG fitted. She is more than happy for us all to come round and visit to see what they look like. I did ask if her little boy wouldn't mind and she enthusiastically explained that he doesn't mind at all, in fact he is often curious to see if other people have them too!!

 Talking of the PEG, Zacks date has come through for his, its on the 15th July. I am very nervous about it, even though we have made the decision I still find it all very uncomfortable. I think for me this is one of the strangest things about being a parent, making decisions for another person. I very much believe that you should be responsible for your own decisions, make your own choices and be in charge of your own destiny (as much as is possible). Now here we are, making a choice for our son to have a tube fitted  into his stomach so that we can feed him. People tell me it's the right thing to do and I know it isn't permanent, but I would give anything for him to not have to go through this. I think I am more terrified of the operation (even though it is only about 10 minutes). Dan isn't worried, he thinks after what he's been through already this will be nothing for him. He also thinks he is a tough little man. I suppose he is but that still doesn't stop me from wanting to scoop him up and protect him from the whole word and lock us away safe from harm. But isn't that how most parents feel?




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